Excerpts from "Outbreak of Peace"
Isaac: Namaskar,
welcome to Satsang
Please feel free to ask any questions
and speak
about any new outbreaks of freedom.
Question: Do
you meditate and what do you feel
about meditation?
There are so many
techniques that people call
meditation. Ultimately, when you are doing
some
activity to get somewhere, even if it
is to get
silent, you are missing what is already
here,
because you are trying to get somewhere
else. Truth
is already here. The only moment you can
know Truth
is now.
If you are making any effort, this will
take you
out of now and reinforce the sense of
I. It will
take you somewhere else. It will make
a subtle game
of different experiences and the evaluation
of
these experiences. When you are ready
to end all of
this , you come to Now, to this instant.
Don't
evaluate or compare. Don't intend anything
or try
to get anywhere . Truth must be already
here. You
can have many experiences by doing different
techniques, but these experiences won't
help you.
When you say, "I'm going to meditate
for half an
hour," you have already tied your
mind outside
meditation before you have started, because
you are
actually saying, " After half an
hour I am not
going to meditate anymore". To be
in this instant
is meditation! You are always Here. Simply
be with
your direct experience of who you are,
which is for
24 hours and is always Now. You cannot
be who you
are for only half an hour. To be who you
are is
real meditation. In meditation there is
no sense of
separation. Like the river, it came from
the ocean
and when it returns to that, it becomes
ocean
itself. When the attention comes back
to its
source, all sense of giving attention
to anything
disappears together with the sense of
a personal
"I" and only Beingness remains.
So
at hat moment Consciousness is face to face with
Itself. Not even face to face with itself.
There is only
Consciousness. So meditation is happening
in that emptiness.
Thenwhatever
I am doing, it doesn't matter.
There is emptiness and that which arises
iemptiness.
This
is true meditation; this is true understading
So there's no
searching for any objects, any
experiences. Because everything is appearing
in me
and I'm not looking for what is appearing
in me.
I'm only looking for the discovery of
myself. Then
maybe there is one moment of luck in my
life, in
which That reveals itself.
Every moment in
this moment. Even the idea of the
moment appearing is just an idea, because
this is
appearing in Consciousness itself. Consciousness
is
already here, even when there are thoughts
or
objects. So to try and hold on to some
idea of
everything disappearing, makes the idea
more
important than the Now. Then there is
some waiting,
some effort to get somewhere, to have
something
happening. Consciousness is here, you
are That.
This feeling of I that arises, is natural
to this
body-mind. This ability to focus is necessary
for
this body-mind to function. Normally people
are
attached to this functioning of I. They
believe it
to be themselves. You can see that this
has to
happen for this body-mind to function.
This is not
You. It is merely an activity that is
arising in
something much more subtle, absolutely
vast.
boundless.
Then there is willingness to let this
I function
and not to be associated with it. It seems
personal, but it's not. It's simply a
functioning
of this body-mind: it has nothing to do
with You.
This body you had no choice about. So
you are not
responsible for the actions and reactions
of this
personality, which is here by itself.
Do you live constantly in that vision or viewpoint?
I say, look at
your direct experience of who you
are. Is this a viewpoint or is this direct
experience? Now you speak of your direct
experience. Who are you? Not some idea
in your
mind. The concept of constantly comes
in your mind
and this is an evaluation and a doubt
about you own
state. If you pick up this doubt, then
you're
worshipping doubt. See it as only a thought.
Stay
with your direct experience of who you
are.